Remembering this little song, Que Sara Sara, suddenly it allows me to come to terms with one thing....as sang in the song: What will be, will be.
The thought today for me is that what should have been, may not be what it seems at the end. Whereas what it could never be, may turn out to be....what is the rationale then behind such contrasting events. I am puzzled somewhat but nonetheless, if I do have it my way, what will be then it will always be.
As I have always tried to be "a gentleman" forever but its always the "beast" that beats me clean. OR is the Chinese saying: If men is not bad, women would never love 'em. Guess if there's the case then men like me should either transform to be the BEAST or to be left out in the end.
I have always have the simplest of choices and wishes and believing that good begets good. Unfortunately I have not seen the goodness in return but I have not caved in to evolved into someone I am not. I strongly believe that someday, someone out there would appreciate the person in me....but is this belief running thin.....after years of failures and rejections. I hope not.
But after turning 40, the largest turning point of my life is the fact that I am alone and I am OK with it.....of course the hope (the flame within me) to find the elusive someone for life has not been subdued.
Guess my wish for being 40 is to find someone ..... someone who would accept the man I am or what's left of it.
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