Christmas Blues.....2009

In a few days time, it is gonna be Christmas again and it comes a day which I dreaded the most, of course not to mention also Valentine’s Day too.

In the whole of my life, as much as I could remember, that Christmas was a time which many spent with loved ones. I did have a few great Christmas in my life but it all happened too long ago, and simply just too long ago that the joys of the day is all but lost. It must be like it all happened several decades ago, and at a time I was but a young boy.

I sometimes wonder if in life that one must walk the extremes before they can find inner peace and even the neutrals of life. I often ask the questions….WHY??? But in reality, there is no absolute answer in every problem we face, there is no definite solution or remedy for the state we are in….more so often it is us who have brought ourselves to the ground OR that it was a wrong turn made in our decision which affected the rest of our life. Sometimes, are we for one to blame for our miseries?

If anyone ever asked me what is true reason why I have lived till today? I really don’t know the answer and even though I had lived 4 decades of my life, seriously I only know of feelings such as pain, heartbreaks and sufferings. There were of course moments that I thought finally I may find joy and happiness but those are like our shadows as we walk in the night, it could be long in length for one and then it would disappear in the darkness of night.

Many a times, I’d even query why did I come onto EARTH and what is my purpose? In the past when I was younger, I was more rebellious and determined that there could a better tomorrow for me out there. Never quitting and bowing down to extremes of pain and agony then. Something got to give at the end of all the experiences I had, which always on the wrong end. I really wonder then what must I do to change it all and to the point I could not bring myself in believing that there was something good out there for me. Then it happened…..I broke down and never actually recover, sinking into the darkest of all depressions and developing what many would call inferior complexity. I was at a point so down and out that DEATH haunts me everyday. Would I ever climb out of the doldrums and be a lively chirpy me again, was a question I relentlessly ask myself daily then. The answer never came and I even became too afraid to ‘come out of shell’ anymore. Losing my mind and sanity was something which would follow suit….as I could not even focus on my education. I was but only a young teenager then at 13 years old. Not having a closely knit family relationship did not give me much of a fighting chance as I sunk deeper into depression.

Then like an angel someone appeared and offer some kind of console to me, that is what I believed then….and thinking of it today, how naïve and stupid I was? It prevented me from ending it all for a while, as I relied on it to rally some positive vibes into my life. That feint hope died as quickly as it came by as again I plummet into depression and became very isolated. I did not have many people to share with regarding what’s in my head or even my heart. Suddenly I found an avenue to release my emotional stress, in songwriting and in singing, which have always been something I enjoyed the most. Although the songs I have written were not sang by others, and mostly were words of what I felt really deep down. I guess maybe someday someone out there would be able to understand what I felt then……..I went into the worst depression when I was 16 years. It was the age where many would have had their first love. For me, there was no FIRST LOVE and it was like rejections all the way, to a point I had even given up of finding love or even getting involved in relationships. At the time, there was actually someone back in 1985 whom I felt might have been the ONE who could turn my life around. The feeling was strong though I resisted in vain, or could it be again my naïve and trusting nature acting on me again. Nevertheless, I fell again and fail again as it went all to smoke. In reality, I really wondered if it is true when people do say that one must suffer before they could enjoy the fruits of life. To be frank, I never actually believed it but fate and all that has happened made me believed it.

A huge break came into my life back in 1988, as the girl whom I have fallen so deeply before in 1985 came back into my life. Thinking again that it would be great again….to hopelessly falling in ‘love’ again. Did it come full circle? OR did it just went up in smoke? In 1988, came the year where I have written for the first time a love song of some positive aspiration and feelings. The song titled I LOVE YOU was written with the music from a ALAN TAM’s song from his movie “Soldier of love”. The set of lyrics below is the song titled I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU – SAM KONG (1988)

Never thought that I could fall in love
Since the day she walked out on me
Life seems so dark and so lonesone
I wonder what's gonna happen

Life without love is so hard to lead
I wonder how long could I live
Then when I saw you here one day
I knew that my life's gonna change
Chorus:-
Thinkin' of you day and night
Lovin' you so deeply inside
I never felt love so good before
And I know it is true for you
I love you
Cause there ain't nothin' that can change this truth

Lyrics: Sam Kong
Music: 半梦半醒 (谭咏麟 )

The reason why I was quite proud of this song, is because it brought me some rewards as I won the MM DAY ‘Talent Search’ beating a tough field of challengers and also the competition was stiff, and that the fact I was the least prepared for such a competition, after retiring from stage performances since 1985. Then as she came back into my life in 1988 in a flash, she also left me suddenly. I guessed the problem has always been me, though she always says that I deserved someone better than her. I would never agree with that at all because who am I to judge? Refusing to let her go, I kept trying to get her back but all efforts were in vain. Maybe she was merely looking to me as a cover or a substitute prior to her, finding her MR. RIGHT. The walls suddenly came tumbling down for me…..7th July 1989, which coincidentally happens to be my birthday. Hell broke loose again…….

I did not write another song since after the ‘I LOVE YOU’ of another such a song with so much feelings and devotion. After that it is all about heartbreaks and relationships that has gone all wrong. It was then I realized that it is impossible to write another of such song no more……because I have found so difficult to feel again….

Something wonderful happened in 1994 and I thought for a moment it was like a dream but it wasn’t…because I have finally found someone who’d accept me for who I am and what I am, which is so rare indeed. She became my first girlfriend of my life….things got on well and we went on and start a family. Suddenly it hit me again, was it too good to be true as my marriage went on the rocks and even though I have given it enough consideration and thought. I finally had to make the most difficult decision of my life i.e. to walk away from my marriage and continue my solo life again. My heart felt like a sabre stabbing through it, twisted through it and left there in my heart forever….as even thinking of her, I could feel the pain. Maybe that happens when you love someone so hard and so deeply.

I could not hold onto the feelings within too long as it is really too heavy for me to carry. So I decided to open up and used songwriting to express how I felt about…life, love and things around me. In 2005, an inspirational moment helped me write yet another song (under 5 minutes to complete). The song was titled ‘My heart will be with you (always)’ and it is song of reflection of my love life and the comforting moments when I felt loved.

MY HEART WILL BE WITH YOU (ALWAYS)
WHEN I FEEL LONELY
WHEN YOU'RE NOT WITH ME
I START TO THINK OF YOU
I KNOW YOU MISS ME TOO
SO LET OUR HEART BEAT AS ONE.

I REALLY MISS YOU
I REALLY LOVE YOU
I FEEL YOU IN MY HEART
TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU
MY HEART WILL BE WITH YOU

CHORUS:
I WISH THAT I HAVE WINGS
I'D FLY TO YOU
HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS ETERNALLY
I WOULD GIVE IT ALL TO BE WITH YOU
UNTIL THE END OF TIME
SO DON'T YOU WORRY
SO DON'T FEEL WEARY
CAUSE I AM HERE FOR YOU
SO DARLING CAN'T YOU SEE
YOU ARE EVERTHING TO ME.

Music by : Sam Hui (HK singer)
Lyrics by : Sam Kong (me)

This song later gave me some fame as I finally able to perform it with Sam Hui at his concert in Singapore in Oct 2005. This song was of course not the last of my works between 2005 & 2006 as there was a few more songs that was written….mainly about my love life, my love and dejections too.

You showed me what is love?
in the beginning,
i never knew love
i only heard it in stories and tales
i start to wonder
the day i know love
would be the day that i meet u

Bridge:-
you came into my life
when i had given up all hope
to find true love
in this life time
you took my hand instead
showed me the way to true love
from that day
i know i found love

Chorus:-
so let us make this story, a story of our true love
with you near me and i need no other
and it is you that showed me that true love does exist
i love you with all my heart

Repeat bridge
Repeat chorus 3x

I love you with all my heart

Music: 童话 - 光良
Lyrics: Sam Kong


I know that in life, many wrongs don’t make a right but what about many corrects, does it means that it cannot make a wrong – a right. Sometimes I do wonder what is left in life for me in the days to come.

The ability to live alone and bear with the loneliness, miseries and solitude, is not something new but to think that after all the good deeds I have done…..and ending up suffering alone. Gosh…maybe that is the spirit of living.

The more we suffer, the stronger we get……

It’s Christmas eve now and the countdown has ended, spending it at a joint…..I never felt the wholeheartedness of the Christmas atmosphere…as my heart grew heavier by the minute till it struck 12:00 am. Maybe I am just not ready for Christmas…or maybe its just the loneliness that has overwhelmed me. I really don’t know….

Maybe I just need someone to show me what true love really is after all.

Long overdued vacation

Hello everyone,

It must be a surprise suddenly I have written again out of the blue as I have simply too pre-occupied to write due to work committments.

Well, I am writing this blog while still on vacation in Thailand. The fact that I had visited 2 places in Thailand - Phetchabun & Bangkok. While I was in Phetchabun, I took the opportunity to meet a potential customer there and hopefully close a deal or two.

Then I came down to Bangkok, and went on a shopping spree as before I left, I was given a long shopping list from friends.

Anyway this trip it was a little different as I did not travel alone, I was travelling this round with a lady friend, and for the first time since 2001 (together with my ex-wife).

Here are some pictures I would include here.....

Confused State Of Mind

Well for those who have been reading my BLOG must be wondering what happened to Sam, and how come he has been so silent of late.
The reason is simple, Sam is confused and has tonnes of thoughts in his mind to straighten out. There are also issues which he must resolve within himself and around him.
I would say that I have been greatful of late because I have found someone whom I could meet on weekends, least better than staying home watching DVDs or simply doing nothing. The fact that she has been the one whom I have been meeting almost on every weekend, does that make her my interest.....YES and NO. The reason being that I enjoyed her company but am not too sure if she enjoys mine, but if not, how come are we meeting up almost every weekend right..... I am not too sure though but of course, I am not jumping into conclusion or making assumptions on this issue because I have made pretty bad calls in the past. Deep within me, I do wish of course that someone like her could be a part of my life for now.....
Just finished watching the show "The Ugly Truth" and it was hilarious. But it does have some similarity to that of the script "HITCH". I really want to know in reality why do good guys always end up in the wrong end of things especially in relationships.....I really wanna know.
Guessed everybody's life is like a movie script, it is written and pre-destined with twists in it that makes life somewhat interesting or otherwise listless.
Will update soonest.....

Lost In Thoughts

Guessed it has been quite a long time since I really sat down and written something that's in my head or even my heart. The reason being I am very confused right now as time was never enough for me in my work and that I have been torn in so many directions when it comes to my emotions. Though there were times that I may have felt I could have found someone for life but then the opposite thing occurred as it does not appears to be so. So what's next for me......

Though it has been like over 6 years since I walked away from my failed marriage but to be frank, the wound is still fresh and that I guessed it never recovered from it at all. Who ever says it would be easy to heal a wound that's deep and for someone like me....it would be a lie to say that I had laughed it all off.

I may have resisted myself in so many ways not to let my desperation out cause it is never easy to cope with the loneliness. I withheld all of a man's natural instincts for too long to a point that it is so suppressed and I believe that it would be really difficult to re-activate them again. Driving myself into my work with all my heart and soul is something I have been doing to ensure that I would not drift away and think about love and relationships again. It is something I think for now is the best thing for me to do.

Age is now a barrier for me as I am not getting no younger and that the energy levels were never of that 10 years ago. Hated to admit finally I have aged and at the rate which is faster than many. The heart within me has shown signs of lethargy from time to time, and even emotions too.

Watching the movie "hitch" again, it really made me feel like Alex Hitchens in the movie because I always make thing happen for people but never once considering an option for myself. Am I a fool? Am I an Idiot? Am I just too dumb to come forward? The answers I could not answer myself but the fact that my courage to come forward has diminished as maybe it is just me who is just too afraid to accept another rejection. Some would say I am just lack of confidence and self belief. Would it help even if I have both? I would not think so because let the record shows, ONE success (my ex-wife) in that many years in attempting to find a companion. It is like being the game of soccer where you have all the elements to win games but you are losing every one of them and bottom of the league. Gosh.....it really brings someone who maybe strong within into becoming someone who no longer believes he can do it. I really don't know what more I could do.....or should I just wait it out.....should I just accept fate?

I wanna share my life, my love and my all with someone who will do the same too.......but I guess that's just too much to ask for already.....

Until the day, she comes along........I shall be and always be another lone crusader.

Que sara sara

Remembering this little song, Que Sara Sara, suddenly it allows me to come to terms with one thing....as sang in the song: What will be, will be.
The thought today for me is that what should have been, may not be what it seems at the end. Whereas what it could never be, may turn out to be....what is the rationale then behind such contrasting events. I am puzzled somewhat but nonetheless, if I do have it my way, what will be then it will always be.
As I have always tried to be "a gentleman" forever but its always the "beast" that beats me clean. OR is the Chinese saying: If men is not bad, women would never love 'em. Guess if there's the case then men like me should either transform to be the BEAST or to be left out in the end.
I have always have the simplest of choices and wishes and believing that good begets good. Unfortunately I have not seen the goodness in return but I have not caved in to evolved into someone I am not. I strongly believe that someday, someone out there would appreciate the person in me....but is this belief running thin.....after years of failures and rejections. I hope not.
But after turning 40, the largest turning point of my life is the fact that I am alone and I am OK with it.....of course the hope (the flame within me) to find the elusive someone for life has not been subdued.
Guess my wish for being 40 is to find someone ..... someone who would accept the man I am or what's left of it.

The NEW Frontier - 40 years as a person

As the days draw nearer to which I will be 40 years old, I cannot help but recall back to the days when how much I had wished to be 40 real soon. So many things had happened between then and now, and that some had shaped my life and some had its adverse effects on my life.
Believe it or not, the biggest relief between now and then was the fact that I had broken free from the fear of my father who had in the past, casted a fearful figure in me which made me rather timid. After living with the fear for so many years, I felt relieved and that the weight that had weighed heavily in my heart has evaporated. What a great relieve indeed.
To me now, the greatest thing that is missing is 'the feeling of being loved by the one whom I would spend the rest of my life with'. I guess it must be something I have asked for many years and times but has been turned away. I really wondered in life, there is not a thing I hhad not seen or been through. DEATH is the last fear I had because I have come to terms with it because in reality, I have seen a fair share of my friends come and gone.
Today as I sat here writing this blog, I made a little prayer to GOD and hope that he could really understand what I feel or felt. I never want to brag about what a gentleman I was or am today and then but least I try my best to uphold the righteousness of a human respecting another. Again, I have to say that I cannot expect anything to come out it as it had never did......sigh.

I guess that's pretty much life on a whole as it was never meant to be FAIR.

How Do You Know That You Like Someone

Well judging from the title of this blog is yet about another moment of our life where we ask ourselves ....how do we know as an individual that the person we know is someone we like?

To be frank, if you ask me many years ago, I'd probably have lots to tell you and that is very true. When I was younger then, if there is one particular girl I like comes along. I would have a lot of thoughts and emotions going around me such as even butterflies in the tummy, exciteness, bashfulness and of course, increased heartbeats too.....just to name a few. Mainly because when I was a teenager, I had very few opportunity to be with a girl or even should I say that I never had a girlfriend. Thus, it would be natural for me to feel inexperience and also not knowing what to do....even the girl liked me or something. I was regarded by many of my buddies as a dummy as I exercise a great deal of restraints and discipline, and that I was too conservative. Maybe it was a good thing then or not, I am not sure but least of all that I had lived my teenage years without regret, remorse or even guilt as I have done nothing wrong.

This days after so many years had passed and of course a failed marriage, I have found it very hard and difficult to raise the emotions again. Even telling someone 'I like you' is very hard and most of the times I get tongue-tied, or unless I am a little tipsy maybe it is easier. Nevertheless, I really wonder in the years to come.....would I be another lonely soul? I hate to end it all this way but do I really have a choice.

I just wanted to find someone whom I could share my ups and downs with and of course, so will I to share her ups and downs too. But it ain't really easy, or maybe because I got 'burnt' too badly after my marriage failed that the phobia remains. I guess the truth is I cannot take another blow in relationship anymore. Maybe its too premature to say or live with it, deep within, there is some faint hope that there may be someone out there waiting for me........

Here's another of my songs which I wrote on a cantonese hit:-

Yesterday's Love - Sam Kong

Verse 1
Why do you choose to leave
When our love has just begun
Now that you are gone
My life would simply fall apart

Verse 2
What can I say to you
To change your mind from leaving
Now that you are gone
I just couldn't live another day

Chorus:
In the day, it seems so hard to past
In the night, it is so cold
Now that I face the world all alone
What would happen to me

Verse 3
Someday you will see
That our love was just history
Say you'll stay
I will give you all the love you need

Music : Sam Hui (天才白痴往日情)
Lyrics : Sam Kong (14.2.1989)

The Love In Sam's Life

There is an old saying....'Behind the success of a man, there is a woman'. How true it can be but as one of Sir Issac Newton's theories proven, 'behind the failure of a man, there is also a woman'. How ideal is that? Only those who had been there will know, as for me, I am nowhere close to either side of the story.


Looking back in time...bringing myself back to the early 80's where I was into my teens, I could recall every girl who I have had some kind of affection for but it is now merely serves as a memory (or should I say excess memory). If someone actually asks me, how many girls did actually engrave herself deeply within me? I really could not answer without giving it much of a thought as it is not that I had too many girls to recall instead it was too few to actually think that some of them actually left her mark in me.

I'd be brave enough to say there were 4 girls who actually left some form of image, memory and feelings within me. From the 4 of them there were 2 from the same school....River Valley High (1982 to 1985). First there was someone by the name of Clarina Chay, who I felt quite strongly for but we did not work out because of our indifference in beliefs and religion. The 2nd girl from River Valley High too is Jennifer Chong, she came into my life back in Mar 1985 until Oct 1985 and again on Jan 1988 till July 1988. Jennifer was the one which I felt then, the strongest as I never did gave up hope on her but all efforts were in vain. The 3rd girl which I am about to mention here should have been mentioned first, but I guess it was more of the truth that she did actually help me up in my darkest hour as a teenager then, her name was Tan Poh Har. Now coming to the last one, I will not mention her name as she was to be my first girlfriend, and became my wife and now she is my ex-wife. I gave her my everything and in expection of nothing of the extra-ordinary but it did not work out in the end. I blamed no one but myself mostly, though the hurt is very evident and it shall remain as long as I am alive.

In all fairness, sometimes it is so difficult to project our feelings to someone.....without the constant fear of being misunderstood. I have had so many bad experiences and it is like so many that I practically can 'smell' it. I pray and pray....someone who would understand my thoughts, beliefs and of course, believe in me.

Till I write again....remember, LOVE IS BLIND but the person in it ain't

Man & Woman

Everyone knows that it is impossible for a man to really love without a woman, and it could also be the same the other way round too. Nonetheless, is it a known fact that when a man is with a woman, there must be physical intimacy....well maybe so, but not at the very beginning of their aquaintance. I have never believed that SEX should be the key to a successful relationship in fact, I have even doubts that once SEX comes between a relationship, it would end in a flash.

Maybe I am too old-fashioned in mindset and in beliefs but I have preached and abide by the GOLDEN RULES which I have set for myself since I was very young. To be frank, many would have said I am a FOOL but to me, my conscience is CRYSTAL CLEAR.

Just the other day (Saturday), I was out with a lady friend. I have known her for a while but I kept my distance as I do not want to ruin everything but expressing myself to early or coming on too strong. I kept my end of the bargain by being a Gentleman as always, and have been this way for years. I believe that is the best policy. "Banging" all over the place doesn't mean a thing as in the past, I used to have friends who'd share their stories, when intoxicated with alcohol, about their 'trophies' and the greatness of their 'bang bang'. I ignored those kind of behaviour and disregard that as ethical or right. I think its always important to be clear of our intentions and as noble as they were, the intentions should remain as it is and not to be corrupted by LUST.

I always like movies of great script and humour, perhaps I would like to share ONE such movie with all .... who may be able to understand what I feel or go through.....

In all fairness, I may not be the softness in communications as HITCH....but least I have a HEART.

April's Done .... and May's coming

It has been awhile now since I last written anything on my own blog.....reason being that everytime I tried to bring myself to write something here....the thoughts within me are being torn apart in all directions making it absolutely difficult to focus and to really want to write something that's in my head at the point of time.

As the days draw nearer for me....towards my 40th birthday, I could not help but to really linger what's life gonna be like from now on. Reflecting at this moment was a Japanese series I have watched several times titled The Proposal...which is about a 40 year old man who wants to get married and start a family but his attempts resulted in 99 rejections. He never gave up and went for his 100th attempt but again, it did not turn out well. Guessed sometimes a person's looks, his achievements and also his wealth do come into play here. Sadly realistic it seems but it is the fact of life that no one would deny.

I watched the Japanese serial when I was in my mid-20s then and I could really relate the pain and hardships borne by the 40 year old man then, and believe it or not, I am now 40 years old now and looks like facing the same predicament as the guy in the serial. You can say that life is like the series we all see and that sometimes, with the right shows, it reflects so much of our life.

Years ago, someone actually told me that in order to win the heart of a lady, you have to be noble, and really respect her as a lady.....but today, what I can see.....sigh, it is something that maybe useful in the yesteryears and not today. Guys with the most noble of all intentions normally end up in the wrong side things.

My heart though bruised by years of rejections and dejections, and it has found itself in its darkest hours of late. I have found it really hard to bring out the emotions, passion nor even the feeling of believing in LOVE. I guess LOVE is only meant for those who is destined to have it and not for the faint hearted like me. I drown myself in words and in lyrics of songs which if there is someone out there, who could appreciate it, is already a joy for me. It is really so difficult to tell someone you like her or even being nice to someone without being misinterpreted.

The rest is all left to fate and even if I am to live and die a lonely soul.......guessed....sometimes that's life is all about.

As usual before I end, I am gonna share another song with those reading my blog....

Love Song - Sam Kong

Where are you my love,
Do you know I miss you,
Wish you were here with me
Then our love is complete

There are times I would find
You were so far away,
I could feel you in my heart
Like you're here beside me

Our love seems so strong
Our love grew with time
To know that you loved me
Is all I need to know

Now that we are here,
Holding on so dear
It's the love that we have
That brought us here

Our love seems so strong
Our love grew with time
To know that I loved you
Is all you need to know

Lyrics : Sam Kong
Music : Sam Hui (何處覓蓬萊)

Sam, his music and himself

Since I was a little kid, I have always have a soft spot for music, lyrics and also singing. Even once my grandmother would say that I learnt to sing before I could even read ABC. Wow....what a miracle right.

I believe it could be genetically given to me by my parents as both of them do appreciate music in their own rights. Unfortunately I was never give a chance to excel in music as my father was very against it, but still I sing and play the guitar with or without his consent.

Maybe that's childhood rebelliousness for you. As the years passed I appreciated song more and also the lyrics especially. The simplest of phrases in the lyrics could be just so simple but yet have a much more deeper meaning.

Songs that have affected me somewhat are as mentioned below:-

1. Owner of a lonely heart - YES
2. Take a chance - John Travolta & Olivia Newton-John
3. Both sides now - Paul Young
4. Sentimental friend - Herman Hermitts

and many others........

Guessed when I was teenager, many would like to give their feelings to the other half....but for me, I rather write them into words least I know it would not be so painful once you've been misunderstood.

Anyway....like to share another of those self written songs and hope you like it

You showed me what is love?

in the beginning,
i never knew love
i only heard it in stories and tales

i start to wonder
the day i know love
would be the day that i meet u

Bridge:-
you came into my life
when i had given up all hope
to find true love
in this life time

you took my hand instead
showed me the way to true love
from that day
i know i found love

Chorus:-
so let us make this story, a story of our true love
with you near me and i need no other
and it is you that showed me that true love does exist
i love you with all my heart

Repeat bridge
Repeat chorus 3x

I love you with all my heart


Music: 童话 - 光良
Lyrics: Sam Kong

The Beginning

Well, sometimes I wonder in Blogs, do we actually write what we feel or just merely letting off steam. I really wonder as I have read some good Blogs in the net.



Maybe I guess we should just write about what we feel and how it all began, then it could sound more like a novel or a screenplay....



I am not too sure where should I start as I think if I start from the beginning it could be pretty boring to read on....so I decided to start in the turbulent teenage years.

Never once was I, a Casanova or even a Romeo, as truth is such that sometimes good people don't always finish last instead for that matter, some did not even finish at all. I guess you can categorise me as those who'd never finished at all as I have failed as many as I could recalled back then when I was a teenager until a point that I finally 'throw in the towel'. It was near the end of 1985 that I finally caved in to my pain and suffering, and finally just 'retire' for a while. During those period, I spend most of my time drowning my emotions in songs which I wrote as it is really too painful and unbearable, when we bare it all and get rejected. Not that our intent is evil or bad, but its just that I was never good enough for anyone to everyone.

If anyone were to ask me today after 20 years have gone by, which are the girls left the deepest impression in my life. There were 2 of them actually:- Jennifer Chong Chye Lee (River Valley High) - Mar 1985 till Oct 1985 and from Jan 1989 till July 1989, and the other is my very first gf which I will not reveal her name as it is just too painful for me now to even recall who she was because, she was also my ex-wife.

Anyway before I end, I would like to share with you all a song which was written on Valentine's Day in 1988 inspired by no one actually and meant for no one....hope you all like it.

I Love You - Sam Kong
Never thought that I could fall in love
Since the day she walked out on me
Life seems so dark and so lonesone
I wonder what's gonna happen

Life without love is so hard to lead
I wonder how long could I live
Then when I saw you here one day
I knew that my life's gonna change

Chorus:-
Thinkin' of you day and night
Lovin' you so deeply inside
I never felt love so good before
And I know it is true for you
I love you
Cause there ain't nothin' that can change this truth

Lyrics: Sam Kong
Music: 半梦半醒 (谭咏麟 )